Salvation Stories: A Mother. Free Read. Jesus Saves

 

Dear God,

are You there?

Do You see me, are You real?

I hope so, because You see,

I need to get this out, to dump all of 

these thoughts on someone.

Andy sure doesn't care,

and I don't think anyone else does -

definitely not the children.

They all just take, take, take 

I am empty, empty. Dried out,

dried up. Nothing left to give,

just one long scream and a dripping 

and a moaning,

that's me.

A wife, a mother, a nothing 

all around noise, shouting, yelling, 

screaming,

sometimes them and sometimes me,

and the never-ending piles

of washing, dishes, toys,

where will it end?

Where can I find a moment of peace,

a pleasant place, my sanity.

And Andy, he is like one of the

 children;

demand, demand, demand,

'til all I want to do is

run, run, run.

But that's not what good wives 

and mothers do,

is it God?

Are You there?

Do You hear me 

calling,

calling,

calling.

Please help.

I

can't 

do 

this 

anymore.

Do You care?

About

a nobody.

A whining,

sniveling,

selfish,

horrible,

person?

I

know

I

am

bad.

So bad.

So messed up.

Dear God, dear Jesus,

I 

need 

YOU.

If You

will 

forgive me.

Perhaps 

You can.

Please save me.

I need You.

THANK YOU JESUS

THANK YOU

THANK YOU

You are all I need:

All my family needs.

I'm holding Your hand now,

as I get up off the floor;

as together we go tell

and love my family.

Amen.

Dearest Reader,

Have you knelt at the foot of the cross?

Jesus loves you, and He wants to forgive and save you.

Love and prayers,

Alison

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